….she gave me her necklace….
27 Aug 2010 1 Comment
in fun fun fun!
hello, my dearest readers (all five of you),
i guess i can’t help it but try to do things that are less “adult”. i personally, don’t want to grow up, so i seem to be doing things… well, i’ll just get into the story.
my boyfriend and i took a walk the other day and went to the park (to SWING!). you know how much i love swinging, especially now when he taught me how to do it on my own.
but, while swinging, i notice a little girl sitting on a bench, all by herself, looking all sad. i decide to see what’s going on and it turns out, no one wants to push her so she can swing. and i can relate to this, up until a month ago, i couldn’t swing without anyone’s help, either. so, i ask her if she wants my help, but she’s still pouting.
“no swings!”
“okay, okay, no problem”, i say. “wanna go to the teeter totter?”
“yes!” she says and gets up, all bouncy.
by the time we get to the swing, a three year old speedy gonzalez swoops in and grabs one of the teeter totter seats. fine with me, i was happy they are playing, and i was just watching the speedy, so she wouldn’t fall down.
and after they were done, little not so sad girl, whose name is actually angela went to the swings. i was teaching her how to swing, and she got the hang of it just fine.
and then she pushed me down the slide.
the slide and me… not such a great idea. i kinda get stuck in it every time, for it’s made for kids, but angela insisted i go down the slide. she would stand behind me and pushed me down the slide. i tried to run away once. four kids were chasing me! i don’t know how the other two became a part of our group, but i am guessing we looked like fun!
so, we continued chasing a around, swinging, sliding and even playing hide and seek (it’s been a while). if you haven’t done those things in a while, i gotta tell you – IT’S HARD WORK! seriously, i am not completely out of shape, but wow! those kids can run… and run… and run.
when it was time to go home, angela grabbed me and asked her mother if i can go home with them. her mother laughed.
then she took of one of her necklaces and gave it to me, to remember her by. and that was so beautiful i almost cried. i hope to meet her again some day.
“if i jump to that tree in ten hops, i win”
04 Aug 2010 1 Comment
in fun fun fun! Tags: five, fun, little girl, love, swings, teeter totter
do you remember being a five-year-old? wasn’t everything a game? i remember, my brother and i used to play “pillows”. he would lay on my stomach, as if i was his pillow, and after five seconds, i’d run away, and he’d chase me around the house.
yesterday, i got to the kids’ park with the intention of swinging. couple of weeks ago, my boyfriend thought me how to swing. i didn’t quite realize that i can do this all by myself, but now that i do know, i take every opportunity to try to reach the highest possible place, even though i’d be screaming all the way.
there were many kids in the park, so after insuring that none of them want to get on a swing, i sat down next to this little girl.
“what’s your name?” she asked me right away.
“marina,” i said. “what’s yours?”
“my name is anastasia,” the little girl said gleefully. “is that your mother?” she asked, pointing to my long haired boyfriend that is a bit older than me.
i laughed. “no, that is my friend,” i said.
“are you a little girl?” anastasia asked with real interest in her voice and right away called her grandpa to push and swing her higher.
“yes, i suppose i still am a little girl…”
“i am five years old. how old are you?” she was eager to find out all the information about me she possibly could.
“i am twenty-one,” i said.
“is that a lot?” she asked, and not waiting for an answer she said “that is a lot more than five.”
i laughed. she laughed. we continued swinging. she kept calling her grandpa to swing her higher.
we got off the swings and went on a teeter-totter.
“okay, we can only play on the teeter totter when the this traffic light is green,” anastasia gave me the rules of the game while pointing at the traffic light behind. i said that was okay, so we waited for a traffic light to turn green.
up-down-up-down-up-down, her grandpa told me not to push her all the way and not to do it fast, but she had her complaints about that. “faster and higher, but only when the light is green,” she kept saying.
than we just went walking around the park, looking for new rides. since nothing interested her, she said, “i will hop to that tree. if i do it in ten hops, i win.”
i laughed to myself. that is indeed pure joy. pure game. homo ludens in its best. she impressed me.
ah, it’s gotta be so good to be five!
Three Sunshines, Sunny Day and LOVE
08 Mar 2010 1 Comment
in fun fun fun!
do you know of love? of that incredible feeling that covers your mind and heart and makes you do and say the most amazing things.
i opened my eyes. above me, the love of my life stood and told me we’re going out of town. still dreamy, i realized it’s a beautiful day outside (it was raining for quite a while) and it’s gonna get even better with each kiss, hug and moment we spend together. a new day full of surprises. a good day. a great day.
we took a train. a train ride was as great as always. the images of the lake, the mountains and later the sea were amazingly blue. oh, montenegro can be so beautiful sometimes.
we arrived in bar. train stations are so beautiful, and this one was no different. we took a walk, went to the bus station, bought bus tickets to ulcinj and took another walk. we ended up back on the train station where we met the most adorable pups in the world. there were three of them: Ask, Simon and Sunny.
we bought them some hamburgers they ate, they seemed more hungry, but happy. we had to go to catch our bus, but we promised the pups we’re coming back, with some more food.
i slept in his arms at the beach in ulcinj. he held me while i was drifting into dream, but the soft sound of waves splashing against the shoreline would bring me back. my face was covered in the warmth of the sun. indeed, this was turning out to be a beautiful day.
we took a walk. held hands. it was our year and a half anniversary. it was incredible. just to be in the presence of my love. amazing. we watched the sun set behind the horizon.
trying to explain love in words may come off as a little… well, it’s impossible to do. so i will go back to the love of Ask, Simon and Sunny.
we bought some meat for them and went to the train station in bar. they were over there, all bundled up together. watching them eat was amazing. holding them was amazing. i took Sunny into my arms, and he was enjoying it so much. he didn’t even want to eat at the time. his eyes were closing and he was enjoying countless tummy rubs.
Ask and Simon were at their place, eating, while Sunny had enough and was ready for his private photoshoot!
oh, what happiness it is! to see that you have affected lives of three little pups, even for a few hours.
we left some more food for them with the train station personel, and they promised the pups will get it.
we had to leave, because our train was leaving, so we petted the brothers goodbye, and saw them snuggling each other to keep warm and loved.
if you see them, give them love.
and all the love from me…
i met Almond girl today…
10 Feb 2010 2 Comments
in fun fun fun! Tags: fun, kids, laughter, love, special needs
…and she was amazing!
i do not remember talking to a girl that articulate who is still in elementary school. she wants to be a politician and change the society we live in. she knows about life and loss. she knows about love. she knows about forgiveness. and she knows how to read, but only in braille. and can she ever! oh, my god, watching that girl read was one of the most incredible, unbelievable moments of my entire life!
so, Almond girl has friends. her friends are like her, too. some of them can’t walk, some of them can’t see, some of them have other physical disadvantages, but all of them are capable of love! and boy, do they love a lot!
i am an asmyle alumni, and our project was to activate elementary school kids. two wonderful girls thought it would be a good idea to take board games and sweets and goodies to the kids who study at the special needs school. thirty of them live in a building right next, they are mostly from out of town, some even from out of country.
we went inside with all the bags and the principal introduced us. we started unpacking, and they were thanking us. the smiles on their faces were precious, full of joy.
the music blasted off, and they started dancing, spinning around, singing out loud, the whole nine yards! i was excited! i was ecstatic!
blowing bubbles!
i sat down and talked to the future lawyer girl. she liked puzzles. thanked me for bringing puzzles. “you are most welcome! hope you solve them all!” i said. she wants to go to law school and maybe study abroad. very good! you should. there are so many people not wanting to do it! brave future lawyer girl.
sat down with the angel girl and one of the project girls. they were talking music. i can talk music too. so we talked music. was super fun. angel girl also reads braille. they went later to write down some lyrics. she likes music.
i went to find my other project girl and saw she was in Almond girl’s bedroom, reading braille. “that is so fascinating!” i almost yelled. it was. i cannot believe someone can actually read something like that! do you know how complicated it is?! wow!
so we hung out. talked. had fun. for about two hours.
then we exchanged phone numbers. we shall see them soon again.
all the love,
The Pros of Online Dating
28 Jan 2010 4 Comments
in fun fun fun!, society problems Tags: conversations, love, online dating, online relationships, relationship
hi, all. it took me a while, but here i am.
i really hope you didn’t read the title and think “online dating – forever?!” i am not saying that people should never meet, i am just going to introduce the pros of beginning a relationship in this way. my original title was going to be “the pros and cons of internet dating”, but when i presented this to my boyfriend, he said “and what are you gonna say the cons are?” he is right. i really could not see any that aren’t the same like in traditional dating.
i met my boyfriend online. no, i didn’t accidentally came across him, we were working for the same company and he was in a different country, so the only way we could correspond was via gmail chat and skype. oh, and did we ever. but, i am not gonna write my love story here. i am here to speak in favor of online meeting, getting to know each other.
first and biggest pro of internet dating is
talking! when you meet someone in a chat room, what do you do with them? chat! just chat. and then chat some more. and if you don’t want to chat anymore, you sign out, they do not know what you look like, and you continue to someone else. or not. you go read a book. doesn’t matter. but if you talk with this person for hours, and you wanna meet again and again and all that, there might be something to it.
i never met a boy that was willing to talk to me for a month. to get to know me, before he even gets to hold my hand. for me to get to know him before anything, until i discovered that you can feel something for someone that is typing words across from your monitor. it is possible. and it is not rare, either.
talking to someone for months.
second advantage is:
if you don’t like boys from your country, meet someone from where ever you want! no offence to boys in montenegro, but good god, really? most of them are dependent and just not right. i do not know many boys here who are capable of functioning on their own. honestly. uncool. so, you get to choose. the world got small since the internet, you can talk to anyone, anywhere. you can meet people from all over the world. it’s exciting. and amazing.
third one:
you feel safe. at least i did. at the time, i felt like i am just playing. i was willing to get the game to some pretty high places, and did not notice i let my guard down and allowed myself to feel the incredible emotions that took over me. i didn’t think i was capable of this, and i was shocked that something like this can be happening to me, with someone i have never met, but it was, and i accepted it (oh, and we have been together for the past 17 months, if any of you were wondering).
if you are an introverted person, it will be easier for you to open up to someone from the safety of your home. not everyone can go out and meet someone.
and the cons: well, anyone can lie to you, anyone can deceive you, wherever you meet them. when you are in a chatroom, do you think “everyone here is a predator”? because you are in that chatroom, too.
i have friends who moved to another country to be with the person they met online and are in love with. i have experienced this myself. i realized the greatest beginning to a relationship is getting to know one another through conversations and laughter.
worked for me.
all the love,
Can you say “Gleek”?! :D
21 Nov 2009 7 Comments
in fun fun fun! Tags: fun, funny, glee, love, music, show
and how fast can you say “crazed” ? cuz that is what i am right now!
ok, i confess, i am easily impressed. maybe a little to easily 
but that is what makes me what i am, right. i like watching stuff on tv. it relaxes me.
but GLEE? Oh, wow!
i LOVE GLEE! i cannot explain the feeling. damn, i am 20 years old, and here i am like some kind of a high school girl or elementary school kid drooling over twilight, or whatever they drool about these days. here i am, complete junkie for glee music and tv show.
you have to give me some credit here, the songs are GLORIOUS! did you hear defying gravity?! oh, my god! i was walking to school with my boyfriend today, played that song over my phone and was spinning in circles! it is THAT good! and he just laughed. he always says he is impressed by how easily impressed i am. and how energetic i can be!
and this just makes me wanna jump around and DANCE all the time! or just smile while i am probably butchering a couple of notes.
but that is okay, too!
so, yes, i did go completely crazy about some tv show, and i REFUSE to grow UP! there. it’s THAT good!
all the love!
